the foot saga continues

I decided that they were cramping because i was too fat for my feet, and they didn't know what to do with all this extra weight.  Which was great for my self esteem.  When i finally enunciated those words MikeBlair told me to go see a podiatrist cause that wasn't the reason.  He was right.

My #2 & #3 toes have bones that are too close together, right above the ball of my foot, and they are rubbing and irritating the nerve during the workouts. Anything that requires me to be on the ball of my foot for long periods will cause them to go numb. Then cramp up if i keep at it. It's called Morton’s Neuroma. The podiatrist injected some cortisone into the tumors and said that i should be able to be back to my workout soon.

I am on a 60 day program and I'm on day 36. So taking a few days off wasn't my favorite, but ok. I took 2 days off and then tried it again. Still hurts. Ugh. Next day, still hurts. Ugghh.

I have never been an athlete, or even been mistaken for one. It's not been my thing to exercise. I tried some classes at the Y, off and on, for a couple of years and never saw any results so i would quit. I started this workout and it was SOOoo hard, but i stuck with it and have lost more than 12 inches so far. Yea! I was still not loving the workout, but i WAS loving the results. I was gonna be SO proud of myself for actually finishing the plan (60 days), AND was very excited to see the fruits of my labor.

SO~ today i called to Dr. office and they said. Since it was still hurting, they want me to wait 2 weeks and then come back in for MORE shots. *sniff* Then try to the work out again. *sniff*sniff* I am so discouraged. I will not be able to pick back up where i left off cause it too hard and i will have lost so much ground. I just am so mad at my stupid feet...

a lil sumthing

Vivi sitting on her Pops at church.  She is comfy, playing Barbie puzzles on Mimi's phone.

 

I have so much to blog about but it's gonna hafta wait til.  We have had 8 days of snow and laziness.  My kids have been Bogart-ing my laptop until bedtime... but NOT 2moro.  Imma be changing things up around here.  We are going to pretend home school, cause their brains are turning to mush with all the video games and movies.  Spelling, Math, Crafts~ here we come.  Maybe i will even get to use my laptop.



Warm Your Soul

 WW Black Bean Soup


1 med onion
1/2 green pepper
29 oz chicken broth (ff)
1 can rotel
8 oz salsa
1/2 bag frozen corn
15 oz can black beans
1/2 c brown instant rice

Put chopped onion, chopped pepper and broth in pot over med head and cook til onions are translucent, about 15 min. drain and rinse black beans and add along with everything else. Let cook for about 40 minutes, serve. You can add sour cream and or shredded cheese. But if you eat it as is, 1 c = 3 P+.
Super filling! I have made this 3 tx in the month of Jan. It keeps good in the fridge, and i eat it when my family is eating something i don't want to waste points on. (mac and cheese, tom soup & grilled cheese, etc).

This one was just too good not to share!  Enjoy!

day 36 is the worst EVER...

I have been struggling with the Insanity workout and some strange, new problem with my feet.  For some reason,  for the past week and a half (mind you, i have been doing this for 5) they have been cramping up about 7 minutes into the workout.  Enuf that it's unbearable, like stop and rip off my shoes, sometimes crying.  I have an appt with a podiatrist on Thursday, cause there is no clear explanation for this (i bought new shoes on Saturday and always drink a ton of water) and i am very discouraged that the rest of me is getting pretty good at this sucky/hard workout but my dumb feet won't let me do it!  If i massage and stretch for about 5 min, i can usually re-shoe and get back in and finish up the last 35 min or so with no trouble, but i don't WANT to hafta stop like that!

Then, i was chatting with one of my friends yesterday morning, who is a dance teacher and choreographer extraordinaire,  She says she can't wear regular athletic shoes with out cramping.  She suggested some Jazz shoes, told me they were cheap.  So i ran out and grabbed some, knowing that today was gonna be a hard (workout) day and there was prolly gonna be too much snow to get out for a while.  Well, i worked out in them today and had no cramping.  They are UGLY and a lil slippery, but i was shocked!



That all being said,  THIS WORKOUT WAS REDIC!!  We did the fit test and i had some pretty significant improvement there, but immediately following we were supposed to do an hour long workout.  It was our first time to do any in the MAX series.  They are the videos that you do in the final 4 weeks.  It's 15 minutes longer(which puts it @ 1 hr) and super MORE intense.  I am trying not to judge it on today, b/c we were spent b4 we started it from the fit test.(40 minutes of going hard)  I am just pretty sure that it is beyond my ability.  I threw up about 20 minutes into the MAX thing and that was enuf for me to quit, "digging deeper" as ShaunT says. 

Oh, yeah, we also go roughly 2 feet of snow today,  did i mention worst day?

my deck and deck furniture

Ok, how bout next time i'll have something nice to say?

Mr Rules

We worked ALL day yesterday to reorganize the playroom(pictures coming soon) and moved a lot of Vivi's toys up there last night.  So it was no surprise that they wanted to go up there as soon as we got home today.  They had been up there about 15 min when i hear Vivi begin a blood-curdling scream that lasts and lasts.  (JSYK- I AM the kind of mom that will listen to her kids, from a distance, during a scuffle... waiting to see if they can fix it themselves.  hoping....)  Pretty soon i hear Jaxon say, in his MOST frustrated voice, " I can't help it!!!  There is no ballet class in Star Wars!!"  ugh.  His pretend has too many rules.

coming soon... a new me

Well, i have decided that it's time to get real about who i want to be for the rest of my life and the longer i put off the commitment to making the changes the harder it will be. SOOOOO I started. I started doing the Insanity workout with mikeBlair in Dec 2010 and started Weight Watchers this month.
I am have decided to make the healthy choices for ME. And be the example for my family that i can be proud of. I have also decided that i am going to try to do my ranting here. These changes have resurfaced some insecurity and have been kinda a roller coaster for me lately.

It has been nice to workout with mikeBlair. In our past, i have asked him to walk with me or somethings of a similar intensity and he's such an athlete that he CAN'T... He says if he's gonna take the time to do anything it's not gonna be walk, he'd rather run. So he stays home, and i feel bad for doing something away from the family, AND i don't stick to it. That being said, when he asked me to do this Insanity workout, I was thinking; 1. YIPPEE something to do together 2. Oh crap... Insanity?!?! BUT i gave it a chance and i'm so glad i did! Don't get me wrong, it sucks! It's not my kinda fun, the music is nonexistent. It's just an INTENSE (Insane) work out! BUT i really like doing it with mikeBlair. The accountability is perfect and i don't have the guilt of leaving the whole family to do it. We are doing it in the basement, which has it's own challenges(a dif blog on a dif day). But it has kept me at it, to not disappoint him.
He is very encouraging. Even tho i was honest with him and told him that the last time i was this outta breath was in elementary school, when the PE teacher(Mrs. Mac) made us run laps. It brings back all those feelings of being a fat little girl trying to keep up and do what the teacher says, meanwhile my throat is closing up, i can't get enuf air, my face is turning red and i'm white around the mouth. It's just not been my M.O. to exert myself to the point of exhaustion, physically. So here i am in my 30's...doing woooorrk.
We shall see.

is that crazy?

while her dad was working on the bathroom remodel, she found a sharpie in the tool box and occupied herself. that IS crazy.

something else that is crazy? all my pics are sideways, sorry. don't know how to change that.... i'll do better next time. :)