Mr Rules

We worked ALL day yesterday to reorganize the playroom(pictures coming soon) and moved a lot of Vivi's toys up there last night.  So it was no surprise that they wanted to go up there as soon as we got home today.  They had been up there about 15 min when i hear Vivi begin a blood-curdling scream that lasts and lasts.  (JSYK- I AM the kind of mom that will listen to her kids, from a distance, during a scuffle... waiting to see if they can fix it themselves.  hoping....)  Pretty soon i hear Jaxon say, in his MOST frustrated voice, " I can't help it!!!  There is no ballet class in Star Wars!!"  ugh.  His pretend has too many rules.

coming soon... a new me

Well, i have decided that it's time to get real about who i want to be for the rest of my life and the longer i put off the commitment to making the changes the harder it will be. SOOOOO I started. I started doing the Insanity workout with mikeBlair in Dec 2010 and started Weight Watchers this month.
I am have decided to make the healthy choices for ME. And be the example for my family that i can be proud of. I have also decided that i am going to try to do my ranting here. These changes have resurfaced some insecurity and have been kinda a roller coaster for me lately.

It has been nice to workout with mikeBlair. In our past, i have asked him to walk with me or somethings of a similar intensity and he's such an athlete that he CAN'T... He says if he's gonna take the time to do anything it's not gonna be walk, he'd rather run. So he stays home, and i feel bad for doing something away from the family, AND i don't stick to it. That being said, when he asked me to do this Insanity workout, I was thinking; 1. YIPPEE something to do together 2. Oh crap... Insanity?!?! BUT i gave it a chance and i'm so glad i did! Don't get me wrong, it sucks! It's not my kinda fun, the music is nonexistent. It's just an INTENSE (Insane) work out! BUT i really like doing it with mikeBlair. The accountability is perfect and i don't have the guilt of leaving the whole family to do it. We are doing it in the basement, which has it's own challenges(a dif blog on a dif day). But it has kept me at it, to not disappoint him.
He is very encouraging. Even tho i was honest with him and told him that the last time i was this outta breath was in elementary school, when the PE teacher(Mrs. Mac) made us run laps. It brings back all those feelings of being a fat little girl trying to keep up and do what the teacher says, meanwhile my throat is closing up, i can't get enuf air, my face is turning red and i'm white around the mouth. It's just not been my M.O. to exert myself to the point of exhaustion, physically. So here i am in my 30's...doing woooorrk.
We shall see.

is that crazy?

while her dad was working on the bathroom remodel, she found a sharpie in the tool box and occupied herself. that IS crazy.

something else that is crazy? all my pics are sideways, sorry. don't know how to change that.... i'll do better next time. :)

I'm a FALL guy, he's a FALL guy...

Jaxon was cracking us up tonight singing this song from K-garten about being a fall guy. He has been singing a lot lately and he regularly does all parts of the songs he does. Just sitting at the table coloring, after supper while we clean up the dishes. Too funny!

Some people like it humid

Some people like it hot

Some folks like it freezing cold

But i'm telling you, i do not!

I'm a fall guy,
he's a fall guy.
I'm an autumn guy,

he's an autumn guy.

I got the house decorated for fall and the halloween season. It's pretty sad that i am having a trouble even enjoying my favorite season this year b/c of the looming winter on the other side. The change in decor around the house definitely helped my mood tho. :)

Here are a few of the pics that i got of Christmas. The stockings(for you, Robin), that i finished on the eve, and the gifts after being wrapped. These pictures were taken between 3 -4 am. Sounds horrible, right? But i am the lucky mother of the only two toddlers in america who slept til 10 am on Christmas morning!

mike * tif * jax * viv

I have been waiting to post until i could get a few pictures up, my camera was full from the past 4 months but my computer was also full and will hold no more. I couldn't figure out how to get them from my camera to here with out downloading to my photo thing first and that still hasn't happened.

Gonna be a busy week, i am doing a baby shower for the guru of baby showers, SO i am stinking nervous!! It's on Sat the 10th. Well see how it goes maybe some pics of that to come....

13 ways i have changed in the past 13 years

13 years ago

1. Wore crazy, ugly, & bold jewelry to stand out

2. Was very harsh and judgemental of others

3. Concerned with saving everyone else

4. Used press-on nails, full time

5. Preferred to stand out from anything normal

6. Wanted badly to stay at home and raise a family

7. Was not aware of money matters at all

8. Wasn't gonna let my kids watch TV

9. Thought i was SO different from my parents

10. Had never showered with anyone else

11. Try so hard to do everything i thought i could, to deserve Heaven

12. Was easily embarrassed

13. Scared-disgusted by Tattoos

Now

1. Like classic jewelry pieces that show no date, nothing really trendy

2. Feel sorry for people who are very harsh and judgemental of others

3. Just trying to keep myself afloat

4. Get my nails done in a salon, full time

5. Try not to draw attention to myself

6. Staying at home and raising a family

7. More financially aware than i would like to be, sometimes(thanks, Mike..)

8. Can't get anything done at home, unless the TV is watching the kids ;)

9. Realize i am a 50/50 combo of the them (The Good The Bad & The Ugly)

10. Rarely get to shower alone. Always have 2 toddlers right there with me so they don't kill each other somewhere else)

11. Try to remind myself that we can't do ANYTHING to deserve Heaven

12. Embarrass my husband and kids with ease

13. Unaffected-Intrigued by tattoos

Some ways better, Some ways not. Take it, leave it.

ribbon cutting ceremony

A new venture for me... I have always used writing as an outlet. I have many journals from many years. Most of my writings are of things better not spoken. I vent about life's frustrations and then close the journal and feel strangely... better. I can't explain it, other than to say that i feel like i have told someone my troubles & gotten it off of my chest. I get a relief from this type of therapy.
That being said, when i have an idea of something to blog about it is generally NOT something that should be read by anyone other than myself, (or my maybe children... but they must wait at least 20 yrs after i'm dead). I have even gone so far as to have a blog typed out and then realized that it is... just... hmm... let's say.... not very nice, and deleted it instead of clicking the post button. So here goes.
I am going to try to use this as a log of the lives of my crazy and strange children. They are both, together and separately, doing weird things all the time. I see them doing said things and i think to myself, "I will NEVER forget THAT!" Only to then be reminded, later, by someone who was also impressed by their strangeness. Then i think to myself, "I thought i would never forget that?!" How sad.
Here goes....

This Sunday, during the communion service at church, Jaxon handed his dad a car and wanted him to play with him. Mike handed the car back to him and said, "Not right now, Jax. I am going to think about Jesus." Jaxon began a quiet-ish giggle fit. Mike, not knowing what to make of this and taking the opportunity to teach his son a little about church, whispers "Jaxon, do you know that is what this time is for? This is set up for us to think about the sacrifice that Jesus made when he died on the cross for us." Jaxon replies, "Oh, i thought you said Cheez-Its!"

I would have giggled, too. ;)